Love (uncovered)

Writing, is her only release.

Ink to paper, flowing

like her thoughts, spilling

onto the sheet, like blood,

as her heart falls onto the page.

In a million pieces.

"They tore out my heart and

stomped that sucker flat"

How true were his words?

Bashed and bruised,

is the poor little bloody mass,

As she picks it up, to be returned

to the empty chamber,

that was once full of

Love.

Naïve and foolish she was then,

to trust and believe in what she

thought would always be true.

Lasting for eternity, like the

sun that shines, filling the vacuum

with hope and happiness.

Mending the foolish lump and soothing

it's scars.

Only to be torn apart

again, by empty promises

"Love is blind"

Caused by the shields and barricades,

protecting her heart from the spitefulness of

others. Eventually it is unarmed, to

reveal the fool's paradise of

infinite, eternal

Love.

Shattered. Exposing the disconcerted object

to reality.

"Revenge is sweet"

And doesn't she know it.

Transformed, into a seething mass of

hatred, her heart recklessly wreaks

distress, on the unfortunate,

exposed and foolish.

Bursting bubbles, causing their emotions and innermost

desires to come,

crashing to the ground.

Pieced back together,

morphed and twisted, a bitter distortion. Stunned

by the harsh truth.

Only to return to that viscous circle, riding

forever, on the emotional roller-coaster.

Aka

Love.

I wrote this poem when I was 15/16 and I have to say that it was the story of my life for almost a decade. It's about someone who gives her heart away too easily. Someone who looks for a saviour in a partner. Someone that puts her trust in unstable situations, believing false promises. Someone who tries to be worthy only to let herself down.

Living life this way leads to heartache and misery. The love of a partner is not steadfast, pure and faithful like the love of God. Our only saviour is Jesus Christ not Joe Bloggs.

This girl, sad, bitter, crazy from heartache and failure ends up taking it out on other people, causing them the same pain that she received and so it continues.

I don't live in this cycle any more.

Two years ago, I realised that God loves me. I realised that I didn't need to live that way, that He doesn't want me to live like that any more. That He has amazing plans for me, to give me a hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11) And so I accepted Jesus into my heart. And from that day he has mended it, moulded it and made it beautiful again.(psalm 34:18)

See, God has always loved me, and he loves you.  He created us out of love, to be in relationship with Him. He wanted to walk and talk with us freely and for us to be like that with each other too. Loving, comfortable, easy. But then sin entered the world. You know the story of Adam and Eve, when they ate the apple from the tree of knowledge? That was the first sin and from then on we are all sinners. He told them not to, and they did. We've all lied, cheated, lusted, whatever. Even little sins are sins. (And I sinned too, BIG style!) But the consequence of sin is death, hell. Separation from God. And sin has a consequence on earth too; sadness, hopelessness, worry, guilt... (Separation from God)

Recognising this problem, God, out of love, has offered us a way out. Jesus.

He lived on earth, as a man but without sin, a perfect example of how we should be. Then he offered up His own life as the ultimate sacrifice for our sin. Not just death but separation from God, the only time Jesus had ever been completely separated from His father. 

"This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, His one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending His Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in Him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust Him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to Him" (The Message).

You have a choice. You can ignore this and carry on as you were before in that awful cycle I wrote about above. Or you can accept this truth, and start living with God, for God and let Him heal your heart and your mind, see Him working in marvellous ways in your life and experience love, joy, peace and hope like you never have before!

Let me know, if you want to know more!!